I just want to curl up and die.



I hate days like this.

By the way--
I take back my last post (the first half).
I do like my boyfriend. He's nice and sweet, and I enjoy his company.
Sorry, I'm just weird and bipolar.
Okay.

Alright so after school and hanging out with my brother and cleaning my room and stuff, I went to the JPII Homecoming football game. JPII is the private school that I went to during my freshman year... and the school that my ex, Kyle, goes to (and plays football for). So it was fun because I saw a bunch of friends that I haven't seen in two years, and everyone was like "waaaat u l0st wait?" and I was like "lulwat" so it was interesting. It's funny how I don't see these people for two years but they all still feel the need to spill their darkest secrets to me. >_>
When I got back, I talked on the phone with William (bf) for two hours. It was fun.
Now I'm tired.
I will post some pictures from the football game later... no one has uploaded any yet.
Tomorrow (technically today), Andrea is gonna come over and we're gonna shop for jewelry and then we're gonna get krunk with our friend Dylan because he has lemonade. But we're gonna make sure one of us stays lemonade-free so we can drive back safely and not end up like Kelsey...

fuck I'm tired, okay, I'll update this later today. <3



---Updatingness.
So it was pretty funny... last night when I was hanging with one of my friends Sumaiyah at the game, I was talking all excitedly and stuff, so then Sumaiyah stopped and was like, "Alice! You sound so Arab now!" which is true haha... I didn't notice until yesterday. But when I get excited and talk, it sounds super Arab. and being around Arabs at school doesn't help either :P
But I realized last night how glad I was that I don't go to JPII anymore. I mean, the friends are nice, but everyone else is like the rich and bitchy type. At my school, pretty much everyone is nice. I love it.
and no one has posted photos yet.
And I'm just rambling.

but so today, I was woken up at 11 30 by my mother saying that a man needs to come into my room and do internet stuff. So I took my ukulele and went downstairs. I decided to make up a new way to play Ill Follow You Into the Dark by death cab for cutie... because I got pretty sick of just playing chord after chord. So the part I wrote involved tabs and "plucking" as a violinist would say. Anyway, I got really into it, I really liked the final result. So when the guy left, mom told me that he asked her if she was playing a CD, and she said 'no no that's my daughter, she's a music fanatic' and then he was like 'wow cause that sounds really good'
yay me!

---updating again--
And I'm not sure if I'm being good or terrible in this William situation...
like, I'm gonna stay with him because he's a nice guy and I enjoy his company right
but am I being terrible by doing that because I'm still inlove with Tony? =/ gargh.

AND I HATE THAT XANGA WON'T LET ME CHANGE MY LAYOUT, GR. Is anyone else having trouble with that?


---last update! Sunday Oct 4--
A lot happened when I was at Andrea's. Most importantly, she gave me the confidence to do certain things.. like break up with William (she held my hand and kept me on track ), and she encouraged me to call the Jewish Family Services (they didn't answer though, because apparently they are closed on weekends). But yeah, she's my best friend like ever. She really cares about me and like how I am and stuff, and she understands, you know? That's so important. But yeah, William took it really well. He said he didn't want it to be forced, and that we can be friends and everything. I felt so much better afterwards. I literally started getting nauseous before I called, but Andrea helped and everything, and then as soon as he said all of that, the sickness went away. whew! I'm glad we can be friends, though, because he's such a nice and cool guy. Oh and the mission is accomplished--Andrea's parents love me. Yay!
And when I got home, I called my dad, and I was like yoooo and he was like uhhh hi. He seems SO happy to talk to me -sarcasm-. Anyway, at least I was nice and called him. And now Granny is gonna pick me up and we're gonna go to a jewelry show, and maybe my cousin Nathan will come. I haven't seen him in years, and he was my favourite cousin when I was really young! So that should be interesting. And also, mom was throwing away old dresses of hers, and I saw one that I loved, and I took it cause I figured I'd take the fabric (she's waaay smaller than me). But I tried the dress on and it fits me perfectly now! Yay for losing twenty pounds! :P whooo! I shall post a picture with my lovely figure, hehe. I'll just need to fix the straps because they are in an awkward place in the front.
This is me failing at posing! :P

and the pretty fabric!! It's dark purple with a black sheen thing on it and black beads that make flowers!